Big bam boom birthday!!!!

Finally the day arrives which i much awaited the whole year.  My baby's bday.  Its special,  its a whole lot more special because if it wasnt this day,  she wouldn't have been there in my life.  This one day,  i want to give her the happiness of the world, desires of your heart,  peace of heart and mind. Maybe not today,  but someday very surely. I love you honey,  always have,  always will.  You are sweet,  cute, innocent, lovely, beautiful, crazy, stupid, dumbo, stylish,  honest, gracious, thoughtful, caring, superlatively better than anyone and one and the only one made for me. This is your day,  the day made for you to love your loved ones,  get affection from everyone, take happiness and engulf all of these into your heart for the rest of your life.  This is your second birthday with me.  Hope this one turns out better than the last one. I'll present you three things today.  Three different gifts.  Let's see if you like them.  Dont worry,  i'll always be there on your birthday,  by your side.  Always.  Many more beautiful and lovely presents to come for you in life.  I have got the best one though,  it's you.  I dont care about the rest. Love you baby!! May the heavens shower the holiness and  blessings of peace,  happiness,  calmness,  success and love un your life for ever and ever to go...

River crossed, lets sail the ocean together now.

One of the most beautiful things given to man ia the ability to love,  ability to express his emotions, ability to stay together with someone and be happy. In the past one year,  a lot has changed.  Hearts were exchanged,  love was felt right to the core at all times,  feelings were expressed, hearts mellowed down,  there were fights, joy,  laughter, sadness, pain, hurt, care, passion and we saw it through,  together. When the fights took place, it was followed by love which healed the wounds in no time. We got so busy thinking about each other that forgot to think ourselves as separate individuals.  Maybe somethings could be avoided, maybe somethings could be done better,  but at the end of it all,  all turned out to be perfect for us. There were doubts about 'US'. I also had a burning lamp of hope and love burning in me. As it turns out,  i win from rest of others. I will always win when it will come to take you away from the rest of the world. I meant every bit i ever said to you.  I was sorry when i aaid sorry,  i always loved you and always said so, i always told you everything which you needed to know and that too which you did not need to know. You were there,  always.  When i needed a frnd, a soulmate, a guide, a protector, my love.  You were always there.  I never underestimated ur value,  but i value you even more and more as the days fly by.  You are the best companion i could ever get and i feel i deserve you. You are so much more to me than just my girlfriend.  You have become much more than that   even beyond.  Time has flown by rather quickly in ur arms,  i wanna rest there my entire life.  Congratulations and lots and lots of love to you babu!!!!
I Love you yrrr......

Birthday blast!!!

20 years have passed since I set foot on this planet. Never had a birthday like this one. Full of love,  affection, care and surprises. Some people made it more valuable,  some people made it worth enjoyable,  and those are the people who care whether i exist or not.  Those are the people who believe that i am a good person,  a good friend and a worthy person.  Had loads of fun today,  with friends.  One of the many things that happened today was that i was left speechless with the surprise.  My angel was the star of the show,  she was the maker of my day,  she was the shower of joy.  Gave me awesome gifts!!!!  Really awesome!!!  Brought me a cake too.  Cake was sweet,  sweeter was her gesture. Pure were her feelings,  purer were her actions. I just loved it!!!! Couldn't have been better.  Then were my friends. A girl who has secretly started to be one of the important people of my life.  I have very few of them. She was there all along today.  Her gestures towards my birthday was amazingly beautiful. You are a really good friend and i consider it heavily.  You are raw,  you are honest most od the time and you are kind. Loads of thanks to you. Then there is one guy i trust a lot.  Has been with me since my time in this city.  He cares.  A lot.  That matters!! Whatever happens, i can count him in,  in every situation.  Helped them creating the surprise. Kept me out of the way.  He is really good.  Very good friend and more than that a kind hearted human being.  Thank you everyone for your love.  Wont forget even a single moment of the day.  The morning hugs,  the xam tym smiles, the sending me off,  the distraction created in my way,  the beautiful surprise, the surprise people,  the pizzas,  the ice cream,  the walk in the hot loo,  the see off and me thinking everything over and over again and becoming happy,  happier and_______________.
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Intensity!!!

I just love the way you create new names for me like shona, teddy, hunny bunny.....an instant sense of sparkling love starts flowing through my veins, energizes me, pumps my heart to love you even more deeply, honestly and crazily. Emotions and sentiments make a human vulnerable but these are the best things that someone possesses, which keeps you human. U can love anybody, go love your dad, mom and sibblings but ultimately their love combined wont stand a chance in front of my love in just the mornings of my my life. I' ll be there, always, all over you, completely on ur mind. U cannot hide from it, u cannot stop me, you cannot put me away....m there, in your heart, in ur beats, in your breath, every bit of you, feel me, love me, realize me. Stop for a moment in silence, think about me, with intensity, extreme passion, pure love...did a little chill run down ur spine, did u get the goosebumps, did every inch of you started wanting me immediately?? If it did, u r madly and very deeply in love with a idiot!!!

Angel came bearing gifts......

I came back to my city after holi holidays.....
My angel came bearing gifts....

Look at this people....isn't it amazing. Its soft, romantic, lovely, innocent, fresh and beautiful. It's for me. The best i ever got, the best any one can get. Don't get jealous guys, I know i am the luckiest guy in the world!!!
I just love you baby!!! 

I just wanted to tell you this.......

We faught, we faught for 2.5 hours and went to sleep. It was our longest fight. It had everything and it was hard to bear, i admit. I was wrong, i admit, i over thought something and i admit.
I promise you we'll keep fighting our way out of everything like this. Because i got somethings to tell you which you really need to hear.....
-We don't meet people accidently, they are meant for us.
-The truth,? I like you, i love you...You make me happy, you make me laugh. you are smart, you are different, you are a little crazy, and sweet and your smile alone make my day.
-I don't want a relationship which is serious all the time, I want someone i can laugh and be silly with. Someone who not only gets my wierdness but also likes it, you!!!
-When we first met, i had no idea, you'd be this much more important to me.
-It matters who hurt you, how much he broke you down, but it also matters that who can make you smile again right?
-There will come a night when we will not wish goodbye, just goodnyt.

It is difficult to let go old and grumpy things that happened. They were a lot, but just wanted to tell you that sometimes things can get this rough, please hold on even tighter, and rest assured m there. You know m a total mess sometimes, but i also know i've got you back. I know it hurt a lot, to me too.
I love you....hope it heals soon!!

Sister'-in-law'

Once i texted her "hii"
The rply was "Bhaiya I have her phone, m at school. She will contact you when i get home"
I "Okay...who r you?"
Rply "Her sister."
I "Nice talking to you, thanks for telling me this"
Rply "Bhaiya abhi to apne baat ki hi kahan hai ;)"
And i was thoroughly impressed by the rply. In a long time, i hadn't faced such a bullying rply. I enjoyed it and smiled.
Thats her sister, her favourite. She has been a mystery to me eversince. We got into a relationship and we are nearly one year into it and she is shy even now.
She is a good girl, very supportive, smart, loved by everyone in the family and as i hear, very sweet. When i call my girl, i hear this sister'-in-law' of mine in the background most of the time.
After that rply on text that day, i had a different image of her in my mind. I had thought she would come out openly and have a chat with me sometime, crack jokes on me, laugh on me, and be the playful little sister to me that i have been missing my entire life.
Whenever something happens among us, she knows. She knows all. And i like it. There shpuld be someone you can share your secrets, your tensions, your emotions, your feelings and that one person keeps your human. M happy that my girlfriend has her sister to be that person for her. Probably thats why My love says she'll miss her the most when she is not around. She is so so so dear to her. I can see that in her eyes. I saw it one day.
She talked to once over the phone. She was made to actually. It was a nice and cute little incident. She picked up her phone, said out the line "Bhaiya wo abhi game khel rhi hai, she'll talk to you later." and before i could say "hii" the phone was disconnected. It was lol time for me.
I dont know much about her, all i know is that she is very important to our life, she is very important to her life and i kindof have got a little attached to her as well.
Hope we will have good healthy conversations one day, sit and laugh out, make fun of each other and be friends!!!

Pakka Promise!!!

U know i make promises, and i break them. Actually i have made a hell lot of promises that i couldn't keep up with. Gosh!! I am sorry for that! This is me alright. But today wanna make of those promises which i will never forget and neither break.

1.) I will always take care of you, comfort you and and give you happiness.
2.) I will always protect you, us, whatever happens or comes in our way.
3.) I will make sure we together get successful, prosperous and happy.
4.) You will always get the best of me, and i will always love you 200%, right from the core of my heart.
5.) You are my best friend, and staunchest well-wisher. I'll try and compliment the same and hope i'll do just fine.
6.) I will always try to satisfy you, motivate you, groom you, scholar you, enhance you and still keep you the just the same in spirit.
7.) This is my favourite one, whatever happens, whatever time passes by, whatever comes in our way, I will always love you the way i always have till now till eternity and stand by your side when you might think you are losing it, because i know you are a impatient girl, so i'll act like the smartass when you are red.

Baby theres a secret why i am making these promises to you, ask me when you have read it. We keep fighting all the time. I promise it wont change a bit in many years to come. We will continue to fight with each other because it is one thing we have from before you and me were 'we'. We take up silly issues and argue on it. Sometimes its the bigger matter and they also get sorted, and thats what its gonna be in the days to come. You may feel bad about something, i may also, but at the end of it all, too much sweet is not good for health you know. There's got to be an element 'X' in every relationship to make it special. The more we fight, the more we come to know about each other's likes and dislikes. I respect yours. I really do. Don't you worry, your honey is never gonna change. He is gonna be the same way you started loving him. Thats a promise as well. Today i wont make promises i wont be able to keep like "I wont get angry on you".....Ofcourse i'll get angry at some point in time, thats how fights keep up right.??
I love you......
Happy Promise day....

Choco choco in your mouth....

Chocolates!!! I know you love them, i know you love them i give them to you, i know you love them when i feed you with my own hands.
But its not the cholcolate that you like, its the love and heart that i put behind it everytime that brings smile to your lovely face.
I still remember the first Alpino i gave you, though not the messages in them. You all in motion and blushy!! These little things become so
so special when you have your special one to share it with you, like the ones we have always shared. These hasn't been a chocolate between us
that hasn't been shared as far as i remember......I wish i could wake you every morning as gift you a bunch of chocolates and even have some from your hands.
I love them too.....not more than you by the way.
Happy Chocolate day baby!!
Love you....

Will you be my valentine.....??

     1st June it was a lady spoke her heart out. Since then it has never been a look back. Its our first valentine and the most special thing is, we are eachother's first and last. I did not propose her when our relationship started, it was working on mutual understanding to be honest. Its not i was shy, it was just that when it is right, it is right.  But I did propose her on 14th August, and made sure that our first valentine also brought first 6 months of our official relationship!
      Although i know all the answers, i still want to take the oppertunity to ask you my love...."Will you be my valentine...and make me the luckiest man living on this earth who has the privilege to be along side with you, the most charming, beautiful and amazing girl ever....??"

I love you, I am glorified to have you and i'll be blessed to keep you for my entire life!!

Rose

      I actually cannot give you a rose on a rose day or any other day, you can't have it, ever, because i have never heard about a rose presented with a rose. It'll look awkward. Infact when life presented me a rose in the form of you, it felt quite special. You are the rose in my life, the most beautiful thing that can or could've happened to me or could've been presented to me. You are just as soft and beautiful and have thorns for those who intend on hurting you. You also smell nice and its brighter when you are around. So in every way, you are my rose.

You see this flower?? I came across this when i was going through the internet looking for the 'most loveliest rose in the world'. When i saw it, i burst in all smiles. I thought they don't have your photograph to award this title so they are distributing these titles to anything that comes their way.

Happy Rose Day my love!! 

Keep getting beautiful, keep those smiles on your face always (you look gorgeous in them), keep amazing me everyday and be mine (I know you will).

I love you....and I mean it.

     Remember once I told you that you couldn't have belonged to anyone else because I love you so much that destiny wouldn't have played such a big trick on me. I meant it. Remember all those times when i did little things like singing songs, writing "I love you..!!" on your hand with a pen, passing on chits with messages that made you feel for a moment that how much i value you. I meant it. Remember all those times when i held your hand in mine and kissed them and you were aww-struck by it because you weren't expecting me to do that and you felt instant love, emotion and satisfaction. I meant it. Remember all those times i have said that "I love you yr!!" and sent a lot of stickers on our chat. I meant it.

So when it becomes hard to believe that i meant that, just try to remember these days, these times, these moments and try to remember that who so ever in this universe, who so ever special, cannot mean it the way i do because I started loving you wasn't my mind's choice, it was my heart's and I can feel it pumping with your name every moment, softly and emotionally.

Your hug is my heaven!

    The day i got my first hug, from you is as fresh as a morning in my mind. I still remember the way you were holding me tight, not wanting to let me go, and i just lifted you. I felt happy, i felt satisfied and i felt warm love!!
    If you ask me the reason to my happiness when i hug you, its not because i like to be close to you all the time or because its a way of showing emotions, I become happy when you hug me because there is no place better than heaven.

"Sometimes it's better to put love into hugs than to put it into words"
And this everyone knows that once got, m not going to give up on my personal heaven. Do you know that when i m there, i dont think anything. I dont allow a single thought to enter my brain. Its peace with you. Sometimes i may joke stupidily, i may misinterpret some situations but one thing's for sure, you are my angel and your hug my heaven.

Thirsty gets water!!

2nd February, after a vacation of about 15 days, staying away from her, finally i get to see her, hold her, hug her, see her smile and it was like i was thirsty for this all these days. She looked just the same, just a notch prettier, just a little more naughty, just a touch more stupid and just the everything more i like about her.
     I saw her and smiled, she smiled back. While i still lost in her looks, her eyes were scanning me from top to bottom and the first thing she asked after meeting me "Who's shoes??"
     We walked hand in hand on the streets, just the way i like and i got a photograph of her, in formals, even more majestic and smart. I could not look into her eyes properly, perhaps tomorrow, but whatever glimpse i got, they were exactly the same, because they are the best and couldn't get any more prettier.
     I was satisfied, i know she was too. I saw her smiling, talking, laughing, looking at me and holding my hand. I didn't compliment her hairdo today, i wanted to compliment her about that and her dressup in the evening, but she asked me about her hair "These looking nice today na??" and i was like...."Ohh shit!!! I chance gone"
Baby I love you and you are the best and today i really can tell you that its you because of whom i live here in a feeling of contendedness!!!

I trust you baby!!

We all must have read in almost all romantic novels and heard from all different sources that we have that 'Trust' is the most important thing in a relationship or it is the basic requirement of any relationship but how many of them actually understand it?!
     I am not suggesting that i have fully understood everything about love and relationship and i am the most mature person around but i just know one thing, When i know and i trust you like i know and trust myself and sometimes beyond that, i means i trust you by all means.
You remember i told you that Me = You and this universal equation applied to any problem 'we' face will simply turn it into dust! When i make you feel i don't trust you anymore, rewind a bit, think of those times when i made you believe that i do trust you like hell. A person doesn't change that easily baby, and certainly not the one who loves you so much!!
     See i owe you so much, you are making me a mature man, you are trying to make me a successful and a humble man, you are making me Shashank Tripathi, the man you love. I always wanted this thing that when you talk about me to people, they are jealous of you. I always wanted to be that perfect person to you of whom you are exceptionally proud of and can show off. I know i havn't achieved any if these properly but trust me, someday i'll be the one. You are my life and i love you, trust you, believe in you and worship you!!
     I am sorry for making you feel i don't trust you today, i didn't wanted to, but i couldn't help myself. I hope you understand!!
Love you...!!!

The eyes!!

Eyes tell a lot. Especially when you fall in love with them. That's exactly what has happened with me. The most beautiful thing about my life is her eyes!! They are soft and gentle, deep as a sea and calm as a lake. You can feel it. You want to just looking into them, nicely, quietly, peacefully and continously.
    You can tell it, what on her mind, by just looking at her. You will make contact with her eyes and believe me, you will want to happen that gain. Its mesmerizing how the most simple and tender thing in the human body is the most precious and beautiful part. She uses all sorts of things like the liner, kajal, etc and the eyes look just the same, beautiful!! These things may enhance its beauty a little bit, but what is already beautiful cant be compared!!!
    Tears, i hated them. I hated them in my eyes, i hated them in anyone's eyes. Things changed after this girl made it to my life. Tears are very important in our lives. They say what the bleeding heart is unable to speak. They express our deepest emotions and you can always trust them, they do not deceive you. Now, i get tears, i get them for just one person. And it comes straight from the heart. When you start feeling for someone, caring for someone, loving someone, when your heart startes beating for someone and its actually beating, then you have tears for them and you know it!!
    I don't want tears for my life. But i like the way she is. She gets them quite easily. Although i cannot bear the scene of her crying, but i don't wanna change even the slightest bit of her. Her tears represent her tenderness, lovliness, care, emotions, feelings and passion, and thats really what she is. She gets upset on the sight of me having tears in my eyes, scolds me and holds herself responsible for making me so soft now. Its wrong. Baby, its my love for you that ejects in the form of some tears, because tears come right from the heart. So when you touch someone's heart, you made it there.

Pilot

All emotions particularly love once stood opposed to feelings and logics i have always wanted to keep within me. There was a time when my life had a little meaning because i was very impulsive and naive, i thought only about myself and actually felt lonely at times as well. Things change. Things change and they change for good with time. The moment you realize your life has got some meaning, when you start feeling anxious about someone, when you are never alone because you don't have a moment to spare as you are busy with the thoughts of someone special, when pink starts to look lovely on someone which you otherwise thought was an absurd color, when there is no requirement of a reason to smile, that, my friend is just one moment, not more than that, to realize that you are experiencing the life of your dreams and that you are finally actually living. That's Love!!

       My life is beautiful, amazing, awesome, superlatively talented, emotional and is that one I have been waiting for my entire life. Enter the classroom and see her face, looking at you with a nice gentle smile on her face just makes things brighter every morning. Listening to her voice first thing in the morning is like starting the food right from the desert ice-cream, i.e. amazing!!!
   
      Things couldn't have been any better for 'us' if she wasn't the one in my life. Its not because i never get tired of telling her that how much I love her, its because i always wanted a person exactly same as her. I don't exactly know how to explain this, but everyone has some expectancies from their partners, well I have none because my partner has already fulfilled my all expectancies!!!

      I can keep going about her on and on and on forever, but i won't. This blog is entirely dedicated to my life and you'll learn about her slowly and steadily. People fall in love and write some great things. I am not a writer myself but like any other passionate lover i decided to write about her. The difference that I experience in my life other than any other passionate lover is that I keep falling in love over and over again, everyday, every month, every second every moment of my life right from the moment i realized this.